BOO!!

I know! Another entry so soon? Well my last comment got me. (raising hand...raising other hand) I promise to try really really hard to not go AWOL for so long. So help me Bob. Sorry, I watched the cartoon Rugrats the other day......don't...ask.

Anyway, it is 11:09 A.M. and I am still in my PJs trying to decide whether to go see my aunt today. I missed yesterday cause she had a dental appointment. She or they lost her upper denture. We think she took them out and it just got swept away in the trash. They were going to go dumpster diving but the trash pickup had already picked up. She was moved to a bigger room so I believe it was her.

My aunt would never be seen without her teeth. No way, no how. Now she takes them out and lays them on the bed, etc. Wow. That is what the stroke has done. It has taken away her dignity. She still has it some but the brain damage is stronger than her good brain.

That is what hurt me with mom. She lost her dignity. Couldn't go to the bathroom anymore. Went to a bedside potty to a brief. Now her sister is in a brief.

I have decided not to talk about the aunt I am living with anymore except a brief note here and there. She does not know about this journal and I respect her too much to discuss her without permission. I am not ashamed of this journal, it's just my personal outlet to help me cope with things with the help of the best friends....family anyone can have. I still miss AOL J-Land. I will try to get around to your journals soon. I do read a few occasionally. I just don;t have a lot of time anymore.

Anyway, As I was saying before I rudely interrupted myself, I want to see her but it has been raining and my bones are aching. I may go later this afternoon. I hardly go later in the day. That may be a good thing to do just to see how she is then. They are usually mentally worse in the evenings. They call them sun downers.

Well, I just remembered something. Writing about it will, I hope, make me remember. I should have down it sooner. The news gives he day/nightmares. I have a note under the TV to leave it on The Life Time Movie channel (they show clean movies and she likes movies) or the Hallmark channel. This month they are showing horror movies on Lifetime. Not good! So I need to print out new note for visitors, which means I should go see her sooner.

Okay, off I go!